k, so i really dislike it when people always write depressing stuff.. but i really need to vent and get this off my chest, so you don't have to read it.
why? why did you have to show me all that attention? why couldn't we have just stayed friends? it would've saved me all this pain now. why on earth did i fall for you? you're a nice guy, but obviously not for me. i wish you never showed me all that attention, all that kindness.. i just wish it would leave me alone! i hate these haunting memories! every time i see you with her, it hurts.. even tho i've moved on, you still have a piece of my heart, and i know i'll never get it back.. oh to be 6 again! then i wouldn't have to deal with this foolishness, where life was perfect, and there were no worries.. i just pray God will give me the strength to move on and let you go, cause holding onto you isn't helping me any.. it's only tearing me apart. because i want to move on, i want to love again, but how can i do that when our memories are always in the way?? i know you never said 'i love you'.. you never had to.. cause i knew it.. but maybe that was all my mind, play tricks on me again.. so i shall give you over to God, i pray that he will bless you and your new lover, for i have found a greater love, and that is with my Lord and Savior. And if He brings me my prince, then i shall praise Him. if not, i will still praise Him.
I dream of you, my Knight in shining armor, the one who God is preparing for me.
I dream of the day i shall be yours, and you mine
please wait for me
♥
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